I just feel so blessed right now. A word THANK YOU just not enough.
I was worried about things lately and when Calvin told me the good news. I’m kinda relief a bit and I’m happy. And my mind just kept on thanking God for helping us again and again. Either is a big issue or not. It doesn’t matter. I been asking God, what should I do and I know I should ride the road a head of me that he had plan for me. But God, really thank you for being there for me all the time. You have always watching us from above.
So, I was dead to bored today at work. Work had be done and been browsing net for something to read. I always end up looking at professional photography and see what they have on their port folio. I been practicing but I guess, I need a friends that have same interest. I mean someone who I can go out and do something together. Calvin always been busy and he don’t help me at all. He never show me pointer in shooting for editing. Maybe it’s time for me to have my time. Maybe I should let him feel how I feel for not getting attention from someone. Will he care if I’m not home all the time??? I want to get better and be more interested in camera. Instead of buying clothes and stuffs, I want to invest on camera and lenses.
I always wanted to have my own study room. Where I can do all my scrapbook, photography and etc. I already know how to design my own room. I wanted a studio room too. Gosh, I want a lot of things. If I have kids or pets. I pity for them. They gonna be my model.
Am I too busy or I’m just lazy. I seem not enough time for everything. I didn’t do anything I wanted to do. First, I’m lack of sleep. Everyday, I only have 7 hours sleep or less and that’s not enough for me. I used to sleep at least 12 hours. Being cut short my sleeping should be more productive. To bad, it’s not. I wake up very early now, before 8. It’s hard at first but now, it’s a routine. Saturday and Sunday, is my bonus, I get to sleep a little bit longer.
So, I stayed at work for 8 hours daily, not included lunch time. Work sometimes can be so boring due to nothing to do and sometimes, it just drives me crazy with tons of works. Busy or not, I’m always tired after work. Then, I have to prepare dinner and it took me one and a half hour or more. My tv time is when I’m having my dinner. I eat in front of the time. By the time I’m done with resting it was 10 or 11 and that’s my shower time. Gosh, can you see how time flies. That not included going online or anything yet. Sometimes, I have to spent sometimes to steam my clothes. Do anyone think, I should get a maid for the weekend??? LOL!!!
I wanted to do some much thing. I want to do my scrapbook which I have put a side for a very long time. Kept on buying scrapbook stuffs but did nothing to it. 2nd didn’t get to send my photos for prints. 3rd never get to update my sister website store for her. 4th didn’t get to re-organize my desk. 5th never get to play my sims. 6thnever get to practice my photo shooting and golfing. 7th never get to update my blog. 8thnever get to bake some cookies or cakes.9thforget how to love Calvin 10th almost forget Calvin living with me.
Bottom line is, I need someone to help me in something. There other things I do at home and I don’t see it. Time really wait for no one. By the time I realize, I have pass my 20’s and into a next level. I don’t complain about Calvin not helping me. He haves his own stuffs and busy with his works. Man should have a career and make more money for me to spent. Like someone says, if there a man that always pay attention on you either he very rich or he have no money. Or with someone who have a great future but no attention. Who I pick???? I still love Calvin as I love him the first time. I knew, what ever he does now, is for us and no word for I or me. Even thou, sometimes he have no time for me, it’s okay. I’m happy to wake up everyday in the morning and he still here with me.
Thank you god for the blessing and for everything I have in my life. Maybe sometimes, things happen not I wanted it to be but there always something greater waiting for me. Thanks Lord, for making me understand and see beyond stuffs that I don’t understand in life. And please guide Calvin for every decision he makes in life and his health. Amen.
