Petite Bunny

This post a little bit out dated but I still want to post it. How can I not posting this when my baby girl going through all the pain by herself. I remember it was Tuesday the day we all woke up at 7am to get ready. My baby still rolling on the bed and refuses to wake up. She dragging herself to walk which is really really cute and watching us getting ready.

I think she knew something was up and she saw I’m packing her stuffs. She got all excited but she doesn’t know that she going for a surgery. My heart is nervous and scare. Yup scare or I’m feeling sad coz I’m going to leave her there for a day. I never really separated with her before. The only time we separated is she at home and I know her safe. But I never let someone else taking care of her. That’s the biggest challenge for me to trust someone. I know she’s alright but I have my own challenge in life.

When we on the way to the clinic, I wanted to tell Calvin let’s turn back but I can’t. I have to be strong and Calvin kept on teasing me about me missing Cassie. And I’m too stubborn to tell the truth to Calvin coz he will continue to tease me instant of comfort me and that’s why I told him I’m not. The truth is I want to cry. I know I’m silly.

When we reached the clinic, we had to fill up the form. I just want to hold my baby and won’t let go. But it’s for all of us good. I don’t want her to get cancer when she gets old and she will be a lot of pain that these. I want her to be healthy and the best for her. In my eye, I never see her as a dog but a human with 4 legs. No matter how stinky she is, she will still get my hugs and kisses coz she my precious. Should have named her precious. We have to leave her there till they give us a call for pick up.

Walking in the house with no one greeting is a bit odd. Trying to get some sleep but ended up doing something else. Time passes slow and worried about her. Went out with Elaine for lunch and did some shopping but my heart is with Cassie and been quietly prayed in my heart that my baby girl is doing well. I did call to check on her and the nurse was telling me she doing fine and she taking her rest and will call me for pick up. My heart is calm when I heard it but don’t know what to expect when I see her.

Tick tock tick tock and the time are still ticking. I finally received the called that I can pick her up. YAY!!!! And I’m still at the church office discussing about the Bay kids. Wanted to leave so badly but can’t. Arrggghhhh and I are late picking her up when I had been watching the clock like hoax.

Picking her up was the best. I thought her going to be weak but she’s not. She kicking the air and telling me to bring her out from that place. She was shaking as she was scare and how the doctor pulled 7 teeth from her and cut her too. I will show you the teeth on the next entry. She actually very weak when she settles her down in the car. I’m so scare coz she seem so fragile at that moment. Every movement I made, I’m so aware about her stitches from opening.

It’s a hard time for her coz she can’t have a full meal for 2 weeks. She can’t jump or play hard. And not allow going outside. Basically we don’t want her to get infection. It tough but she made it through. Sorry baby for mommy putting you through the pain but look at you know. You are healthy and strong and bigger in size. That’s why you deserve your own closet too. Yes, she has one.